glyn ([info]glynfoodlover) wrote,
2005-07-17 11:25:00
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if i prayed, i would be right now...

i don't know what's wrong with me

i've been having these mood swings. either i'm estatically high, or depressingly low. yesterday, into last night, i hid my depressingly low mood under incessant laughter at a totally unfunny event.

maybe i do need american red cross counseling. maybe this is what happens after you do that.

i saw that picture on zach's lj and i burst into tears. i'm glad that picture was posted though. thanks

i just can't figure it out, i've been crying, but why??? they say he's going to be ok. i believe that too. i think it's just the fact that i haven't actually been able to see him, to speak to him, to know for certain, with my own eyes that he's going to be fine.

last night, i thought about everything that had happened/went wrong and i felt sick to my stomach. i had to throw up.

i'm really glad no one is at my house right now. it gave me the chance to just scream and cry. at stupidity. at near-death experiences. at wondering if i had done everything right. i could have caused his injury, pulling him out of the pool too roughly. with a sinking victim you're supposed to support their neck in case it's broken in order to prevent further injury. we didn't do that. i should have known to do that.

looking back, there are so many things i SHOULD have done. i know i can't dwell on them. this is not a post for pple to say "it's not your fault". i don't need that. i need confirmation. i need to see that he's going to be fine. proof. him in person.

whoop. gotta stop crying so loudly, the mom just walked in
suck it up...

A CRAZY BLACK WO/MAN JUMPED IN OUR CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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[info]likeiwassaying

July 18 2005, 18:25:29 UTC 6 years ago

everyone we know is going to tell you the same thing, to the point where it seems cheap. i almost don't want to say it, it sounds so contrived. you can't blame yourself for not being perfect under pressure.

i don't know what to say

[info]tnrunner13

July 18 2005, 19:30:26 UTC 6 years ago

Glyn, you may not have done everything right, but you did what you have been trained to do. You saved someone's life and that is all that matters. He will be fine and he will live on and it's thanks to you. Don't dwell on what you may not have done perfectly because it doesn't matter at this point. He is alive and you're the reason for it.

[info]voler

July 18 2005, 19:38:23 UTC 6 years ago

I'm so proud of you, Glyn.

[info]snowmanpj

July 18 2005, 20:02:38 UTC 6 years ago

i was standing there right after he was pulled out and watched you do cpr. i felt his neck for a pulse and when i found none i almost vomited right there. any kind of experience like this is traumatizing, even for the people who werent there when it happened. after any sort of lifeguarding rescue made at a public place, that lifeguard, and all the others involved in the rescue are supposed to stop working and take at least a week of counselling. and that is prescribed when someone doesnt know the victim. staying cool under pressure is a lot easier when the victim is someone you dont know. there was no equipment on hand to stabilize his neck, and getting him out of the pool was the first priority. the manner in which you pulled him out of the pool did not cause his injury. there was nothing more you or i or anyone else there could have done or should have done. you handled it well. much better than i did.

[info]deepestbreath

July 18 2005, 22:42:19 UTC 6 years ago

dear glyn,
you amaze me.
love,
anna

[info]myheadhurts2012

July 18 2005, 22:52:03 UTC 6 years ago

Crying is good for you. I cried yesterday...Harry Potter...::tear::

[info]the_quixotic

July 19 2005, 00:51:26 UTC 6 years ago

i totally cried during the last pages of HP. it was devestating.

[info]myheadhurts2012

July 19 2005, 05:41:16 UTC 6 years ago

Dude...I could like hold up...until Harry said "they'll want to say" but couldnt finish it and Professor Flitwick had to finish with "Goodbye"...yep that was a tearjerker...I dont know why...and then the last few pages were just emotionally tearing in themselves.

[info]dannyb826

July 18 2005, 23:14:59 UTC 6 years ago

glyn you're awesome. you had more courage than anyone there.

and watch out for the crazy black women. they'll get ya.
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